Am I too Dumb or too Kind??

Am I playing my role correctly?
Sometimes I really wonder why am I born into this world. Seriously, I do get great feedback for the questions I asked but not everytime. I knew life isn't perfect all the time, but I still practice negatively when something isn't good happened. Everyone wants everything to be done perfectly and yes they can make it, but I can't.
I told myself not to be so childish and playful yet I can't make it, but getting worse to worse or it can says seeing hungry ghost floating on the road. Honestly speaking, I do try my best to change. But I don't know why, when I feel the changing time,the next time, I'll change back into the old me. People out there are laughing at me,laughing for not doing my part well.
Sometimes, I really get confused. Why am I being so naive? Till now, I don't really have the answer to this question. But what I heard from everyone is that I'm too childish. Is that so? Or I'm too dumb.
Human love to play with masks but which want is the real mask behind the masks?

Should I feel happy......................... or sad??

The miracle is true when T told me I got 77 for my paper but I cannot feel the 100% happiness when I knew some of my friends were in the bad mood. Why? Why?? All of us had been trying so hard why can't all of us receive the good news. I dislike the feeling of don't know what to do to overcome the situation. Today I should feel the pleasure in me but now I realized although I got the highest I still feel depressed. Sometimes, human are ridiculous, happy yet sad, want yet don't want, flying yet saying themselves walking. Dear Buddha, again I'm lost. Lost because I don't know how to talk sweet and don't know how to overcome this feeling. I predicted that all of us can pass and R get the highest among all of us. Please, please tell me that it was a mistake that all of us can share the laughter again. I don't want to be isolated, I don't want to be famous out of sudden because I have not prepare myself and I know where my ability stands that I can't go far. Although it was my Great 21st birthday gift will I be maintained under my prediction?? I have no courage and I can't afford to lose something huge when I received something big.
Well, I think Buddha planned everything and I believe what he planned, are my goodness. I shouldn't complain much. But if there's a choice, I really hope happiness can reach everyone... No matter what, I am still who I am, I will not change I only go mature. Believe ME!!! Please do always Guide me Buddha!!!

True or Fake??

Unofficially received a miracle stated that I got 77 for my Marketing Strategy exam paper. Honestly, when I saw my mark written on the website, I was happy BUT feel ridiculous because I know where my ability stands. Of course who doesn't want such a mark. What I afraid is, putting too high hope end up higher disappointment. Until my coordinator came into class and told us that those marks stated on the website isn't real because that reveal on 1st marker only whereby it must moderate again through 2nd and 3rd markers. Luckily I never get too excited about it. Coming Wednesday, the TRUE results will be out. Will I be the lucky one to get the mark? Or mistakenly posted up wrong figure. Whatever it is, I already did my best, and I'm gonna leave it to Buddha. Hopefully all of us can pass just keep our fingers cross.